Your second awakening was realising all that healing was just making you a more polite, acceptable version of yourself.
You've spent decades outsourcing your authority. To your family, to men, to spirituality, to the system. You were sold on the idea that if you just find the right modality, do enough work, become healed enough, you'll finally feel worthy of the life you secretly crave.
And you've been in healing spaces long enough to smell the bullshit.
You're not anti-healing. You're anti-bullshit, disillusioned, and angry.
If you're in the right place, you already know it.
You've stopped over-giving and people pleasing but you still feel that dread in your body when you let someone down or have to set a boundary. It still comes with tightness in your chest and a sick feeling in your stomach. You've nailed the mindset, but your nervous system hasn't caught up yet. The good girl appears like the ghost of a past self you thought you'd buried…
You have a shelf full of books about attachment theory, inner-child work and a copy of 'the body keeps the score' that you keep meaning to read. You've tried therapy but don't feel like you're getting anything out of it. Every time an old pattern reappears you beat yourself up — 'I know all of this, so WHY AM I STILL DOING IT?' Your sharp analytical mind is your superpower at work but your worst enemy in your emotional life. You've heard the word 'somatic' a million times but can't seem to switch from your thinking channel to your feeling channel…
ou spent the first half of your life masking and hiding your weirdness. Then came perimenopause. Now you couldn't mask if your life depended on it, and you're raw dogging it without the same coping strategies that got you through the first 40 years. You have something to offer the world, but you are scared of putting yourself out there and being rejected. You've tried mindset work and therapy, but it doesn't work for you — because it wasn't made for you…
Everything you thought you knew about yourself was built around someone else's story. Then something cracked. The relationship ended, the divorce happened. Now you're standing in the rubble wondering who you actually are, and it feels like you're meeting yourself for the first time. You've lived your life in someone else's shadow, and you can see all the places where you gave your power away for so long...
What every single one of these women has in common: the pattern running their life isn't in their story. It's wired into their body. And understanding it has never been enough to change it. That's what we work on.
You want to say no without the three-day guilt spiral. You want to let your anger have a voice without needing to jump in and smooth it over. You want to walk into a room and take up space without the 'I'm too much' story running in the background.
You want to stop settling for breadcrumbs when you actually want the whole fucking loaf.
You've done everything healing culture tells you to, but that's the problem. Healing culture plays on the good girl conditioning that keeps you following someone else's framework, beliefs and rules instead of burning it all to the ground and following the one authority you can actually trust.
Your own.
"I kept believing I wasn't healed enough." — every single woman I've ever worked with.
Two months. Four 90-minute 1:1 sessions and me in your pocket. This is where you shed the shit that's been hijacking your life.
This isn't therapy. It isn't coaching. It isn't another framework to understand yourself with. It's the removal of the wiring that made it feel safer to settle for breadcrumbs than to claim the whole fucking loaf.
We don't try to undo a lifetime of conditioning in two months. We find the place it's costing you the most right now, and we undo it. That one shift has a way of changing everything else.
Defiant Feminine interrupts the old muscle memory of people pleasing and fawning that's still hijacking your life at the body level. Not through more understanding — through actually rewiring the automatic response. The body physically shakes out the old fawn response, the freeze, the automatic yes. It's not metaphorical. It's physiological.
That's the difference between white knuckling a boundary and embodying your authority.
WHAT'S INCLUDED:
⚡️4 x 90-minute Shed the Shit sessions
⚡️Private Telegram support throughout
⚡️Guided practices, audios and videos to keep the shifts going in-between sessions
⚡️Lifetime Access to the Hub as it grows
🙌🏻⚡️BONUS: Instant Access to The Good Girl Detox and The Good Girl Rebellion
Someone says something you disagree with, and you say your real opinion. Then you drive home and go to sleep. You make a mistake at work and let it go without getting sucked into a 3-day shame spiral and drafting your resignation letter. You send the first draft of the email without adding 17 emojis and "no worries if not" because you're scared of looking rude.
You can tell your partner he hurt you without ruminating for a week and asking the group chat if you're being too needy. You say no to your mother-in-law coming for Christmas without thinking it makes you a terrible person.
Because suppression always comes with a cost, and instead of absorbing it, you start letting other people pay.
None of this feels like a breakthrough. It just feels like you.
Your body already knows how to release stress, suppression and survival energy. You've just been taught to override it, numb it or just get on with it.
Your triggers are doorways. We use them to find the charge in your body where the old conditioning lives. It doesn't live inside the narrative; it lives in the knot in your stomach and the tightness in your throat. That's the imprint of the boundary you couldn't hold, the relationship you couldn't leave, and the voice you swallowed.
You're not scared of rejection or judgment itself. You're scared of the sensations they create in your body. Most of us were never taught how to actually feel without suppressing, escaping or intellectualising our emotions.
I don't drop you right in the ocean — we start at the shoreline. We slow things down enough to stay in contact with the sensation instead of being consumed by it. Eventually curiosity starts replacing fear. That's how we begin expanding what your nervous system can hold.
This is the part where we shed the shit. I guide you through a process that switches the tremor response back on. Your body starts shaking involuntarily as years of tension begin moving through instead of staying trapped in your muscles, jaw, gut and nervous system. The body completes what the mind has been trying to fix for years.
This is where change stops being insight and starts being real. We work in your stretch zone. Far enough outside your usual patterns that it feels uncomfortable, but not so much that your nervous system freaks out. We start with micro-acts of rebellion where you deliberately go against your conditioned responses. You say what you mean, hold the boundary, don't apologise. You do it enough times, and it stops being brave. It just becomes who you are.
"Working with Lenna has been the single most positive and transformative experience I've had, perhaps ever. People tell me they can sense a change in me. It's not obvious, it's more of an energy shift. I have a new relationship with shame and self-worth. Lenna strikes a perfect balance — not about spiritual bypassing and love and light as a way to avoid the shadows. She's love and light AND boundaries and self-respect and facing those shadows."
"I came in thinking we'd work on cancer trauma. After one session I joked — okay, I think we've basically handled the cancer thing, what's next? We so quickly started uncovering much bigger patterns. I genuinely feel like a more authentic, coherent version of myself. I've started taking real steps towards the life I actually want, and I don't see choosing myself as selfish anymore."
"Talk therapy helped me understand my patterns but it didn't help me change them. This was the first thing I'd tried that actually got me into my body. There's this incredible lightness after you finish shaking. And then this heaviness, this tiredness — and I have the best sleep. I feel so grounded after the sessions."
I became fluent in the language of healing and learned how to soften and regulate myself into someone I didn't even recognise.
I spent seven years immersed in new age spirituality and wellness culture trying to heal myself into someone I wasn't. I watched women in these spaces slowly disconnect from themselves in the name of becoming "healed." They would show up with fire, humour and opinions and slowly turn into whispering, hyper-self-aware docile versions of themselves.
And I kept blaming myself for not being able to become one of them.
Underneath all the self-awareness and healing language, my nervous system was still wired for self-abandonment. I still fawned and was desperate for male approval. I still felt terrified of rejection, judgment and being misunderstood, and my body still treated authenticity like a threat.
The whole time, my body was trying to tell me something. I just kept overriding it.
The tipping point wasn't a breakthrough. It was a rage. Not performative "sacred rage" but a full body refusal to keep betraying myself just to be accepted. I couldn't sit in one more whispery women's circle, or nod along to one more guru telling a woman what to do.
So, I left it all behind and started to feel like myself for the first time in my life.
I finally stopped trying to heal myself into someone else's version of femininity and started building my own.
I started trusting my anger, rediscovered my humour and started expressing myself without apology.
That's where Defiant Feminine came from. Not from a training manual. From a body that finally stopped betraying itself.
I'm Lenna. I'm a somatic coach, writer, and psychedelic guide. I work with women who are done with healing culture and ready to follow the only authority that has never lied to them.
Their body.
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You've had a second awakening and have realised that new-age bullshit and wellness culture were just making you more obedient.
You're neurodivergent or highly sensitive and you've been trying to heal in a system that wasn't created for you.
You can intellectualise, analyse and explain every single one of your patterns but they're still running your life.
You're done circling the story of your childhood and are ready to actually change the behaviours and beliefs that were installed by other people.
You can watch yourself fawning and shrinking even though you know better.
You have a deep desire to be seen, start a project, leave a job or show up in a new way that feels just out of reach.
You want another framework to understand your patterns. You already have enough of those.
You believe some emotions are negative and you want to bypass them to get to the 'good' ones.
You're still buying into the idea that forgiveness and compassion are the endpoint of healing.
You want help tolerating a life you actually need to change.
You're waiting to be rescued, or you think being chosen by a man is the reason to do this work.
This investment would put you into financial survival mode, or you're trying to squeeze it into an already chaotic life. This work needs space and focus.
You're looking for a guru or a healer to do it for you. I'm a facilitator. The authority has always been yours.
There's always a cost to suppression. Right now, you're paying it by absorbing other people's discomfort instead of letting them sit in it. Because it feels too dangerous to be disliked, judged or rejected. So you stuff your real reaction back in your body, and it sits there growing bigger, until something has to give.
That's why you can't unclench your jaw, why you carry that tension in your shoulders like a boulder you can't put down. Your body is the one paying the price.
Your life is worth more than your compliance.
This doesn't have to look dramatic. You're not going to start running around screaming at people, telling your boss to fuck off or divorcing your husband overnight.
That's what I call the pendulum effect. It's an overcompensation for a lifetime of suppression. It's what happens when you don't do the nervous system repatterning and just rely on boundaries and mindset shifts like "just stop caring what other people think."
This work lets your body dictate the pace of change. This isn't about blowing your life up, it's about dismantling the parts of you that still think settling is safer than expanding. We build the new patterns one brick at a time.
Until one day, the woman who settled for breadcrumbs is unrecognisable.
That's what happens with work that's body led. I'm not here to give you the answers or tell you what to do. I'm here to guide you through a process that will help your body reveal them.
The women I work with don't just shed the shit. They find the voice that was being smothered by their conditioning.
That's the voice that already knows.
She knows where you're settling and where you're ready to move on. She doesn't abandon you or beat you over the head with shame when you make a mistake. She's been there since the beginning. You just couldn't hear her.
"It gave me permission to feel excited to grow old disgracefully. Every woman in midlife needs this — because it's more fun to be wild, authentic and individual." — Bonita
Online £1,200 in full or £610 x 2 months or £410 x 3 months
In person £1,350 in full or £685 x 2 months or £460 x 3 months
Please read before applying.
Defiant Feminine is not a therapeutic container for working with trauma. It is for women who have already processed trauma, been in therapy and feel like they need the next layer. Trauma may arise during the process, which is to be expected, but this is not a container to process and work directly with trauma.
Although we'll always start our sessions with a catch-up, this is not talk therapy. Defiant Feminine works through the body, and although context is important, this is not about the story. If you feel like you need to process the 'what happened to me', you would be better suited to talk therapy..
The majority of Lenna's clients are ND women, and Lenna is ND herself. You are more than welcome here.
Defiant Feminine is not a crisis support container. This work requires a degree of stability. If you're in the middle of an acute mental health crisis, a trauma response, or a major life upheaval, this is not the right time. Reach out when things have stabilised and the door will still be here.
Lenna is able to provide modifications for many different types of bodies and abilities. She will be able to offer guidance on a more personal basis during the application process.
TRE is not suitable if you are pregnant (second or third trimester), have had recent surgery, have a seizure condition, uncontrolled high blood pressure, or a heart condition. If you have a clinical diagnosis, psychiatric condition, or are on medication, please consult your GP before applying.